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stuck between a rock and a cold place

Monday, October 5, 2009 @ 10:08 PM

So today in math.. something hit me. We were working on a unit of permutations, and honestly.. i'm actually liking this math. It's fun, its like pyscology but math involvement. Who would of thought that i would enjoy math. But anyways, yeah so in math something hit me. We were working on these factorial stuff, and my calculater kept saying error.

No matter what i did, it said error.

Thats like the story of my life - ERROR.

I feel like my life is just a continuous string of disappointments and errors. I dont know what it is about october, but i feel so down. Like im honestly not happy with my life. Dont get me wrong, i absolutely adore my family and friends. They are honestly the ones that keep my waking up everyday. But this is about me. I care ALOT about other people. But for once in my life, even only for a moment, i'm going to put myself first. And so no matter what i try to do, in the back of my head - I'll always be an error. I know this is really emo, but i cant help it. I think out of all my " bubbly " days, i get a free pass. A free pass to be emo. I feel like lately i have to constantly fake a smile, and just hope that one day.. somebody will see through it and know something is wrong. Somebody who sees my smile and asks, if im okay ?

My life isn't perfect, and i know that. But i've settled so much in my life, that i just want something new. Something to take me away, to treat me the way i've always wanted to be treated. I tired of making excuses and rationalizing their and my actions. I want that beginning, that got taken away from me.

Let's look on the bright side, on friday i might be reaching fearfest with some loves..tehe, who go by the names of Grace, Stephan and Andrew. Oh gaw, im hoping that fearfest will scare me so bad, that it'll shake the "emo" right out of me. Or at least give me a day to forget. To stop thinking and just scream at the top of my lungs. Scream like nobody else can hear me. Scream high enough that God will think i'm making too much noise.

I ask again God, to give me strength because i obviously don't have enough. :(

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HELLO, FELLOW BLOGGERS! So, just letting people know.. i'm off the blog scene! GOODBYE BLOG SCENE, HELLO TUMBLR! feel free to visit my tumblr.. nicolesaysrawr.tumblr.com	stuck between a rock and a cold place Monday, October 5, 2009 @ 10:08 PM So today in math.. something hit me. We were working on a unit of permutations, and honestly.. i'm actually liking this math. It's fun, its like pyscology but math involvement. Who would of thought that i would enjoy math. But anyways, yeah so in math something hit me. We were working on these factorial stuff, and my calculater kept saying error. No matter what i did, it said error. Thats like the story of my life - ERROR. I feel like my life is just a continuous string of disappointments and errors. I dont know what it is about october, but i feel so down. Like im honestly not happy with my life. Dont get me wrong, i absolutely adore my family and friends. They are honestly the ones that keep my waking up everyday. But this is about me. I care ALOT about other people. But for once in my life, even only for a moment, i'm going to put myself first. And so no matter what i try to do, in the back of my head - I'll always be an error. I know this is really emo, but i cant help it. I think out of all my " bubbly " days, i get a free pass. A free pass to be emo. I feel like lately i have to constantly fake a smile, and just hope that one day.. somebody will see through it and know something is wrong. Somebody who sees my smile and asks, if im okay ? My life isn't perfect, and i know that. But i've settled so much in my life, that i just want something new. Something to take me away, to treat me the way i've always wanted to be treated. I tired of making excuses and rationalizing their and my actions. I want that beginning, that got taken away from me. Let's look on the bright side, on friday i might be reaching fearfest with some loves..tehe, who go by the names of Grace, Stephan and Andrew. Oh gaw, im hoping that fearfest will scare me so bad, that it'll shake the "emo" right out of me. Or at least give me a day to forget. To stop thinking and just scream at the top of my lungs. Scream like nobody else can hear me. Scream high enough that God will think i'm making too much noise. I ask again God, to give me strength because i obviously don't have enough. :( ⇑ top of page	GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODBYE!	affiliates. Ron Onilla Paul Onilla Jacquee Onilla Maryjess Pornilos Clarisse Castillo Sophia Pham Sheryl Tom Natalie Torres Trixie Gatchalian Jessica Enero Edrianne Crisostomo Olivia Yap Mercedes Molina Jennifer Ibana Dominique Reyes Kimberly Vo Jobert Villegas Hannah Verceles Jayare Araneta Justin Ramiro
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